a non-mutual relationship

a heaviness blankets me

like a shawl, misted grey

feeding off my soul,

like a parasite.

it bites.

it pulls at my life force,

sucking, taking, stealing.

my body is not my own.

 

sinister laughter only i can hear

you are unworthy.

you are nothing. 

you are unlovable

no one will ever remember you.

i become a shadow

a shell,

of myself.

the heaviness that blankets me,

the gaping emptiness in my chest

the overwhelming burden of emotions i feel

are suffocating, oppressed.

– anxiety: a non-mutual relationship where the parasite benefits at the expense of the host.

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