i have to stop myself sometimes,
when the numbness is so great,
when it becomes an overwhelming force
growing from the seed of nothingness.
(a tidal wave
of an anger so powerful
i scare myself).
those moments
i forget –
i just burn
burn
Burn.
an undeniable need to
unleash the monster within.
tt dares me.
i am entranced
blinded;
i yield,
and the monster is set free.
it welcomes freedom
a roar of pleasure,
and oh, does it burn.
i lose myself in the kaleidoscope of
pain
pleasure
misery
loneliness
Exhilaration.
there is no numbness now
just a monster
of trembling power.
– archnemesis.
