when the numbness is so great

i have to stop myself sometimes,

when the numbness is so great,

when it becomes an overwhelming force

growing from the seed of nothingness.

 

(a tidal wave

of an anger so powerful

i scare myself).

 

those moments

i forget –

i just burn

burn

Burn.

an undeniable need to

unleash the monster within.

 

tt dares me.

i am entranced

blinded;

i yield,

and the monster is set free.

 

it welcomes freedom

a roar of pleasure,

and oh, does it burn.

i lose myself in the kaleidoscope of

pain

pleasure

misery

loneliness

Exhilaration.

 

there is no numbness now

just a monster

of trembling power.

– archnemesis.