itโs easier to say that youโre dead, instead of just, you left and never looked back. how ironic that the prospect of your death would be easier to handle than watching you walk away so casually, (a voluntary abandonment). it's easier to say that you're dead rather than remember how my mother's tears created permanent [...]
Tag: anxiety
catastrophicย
the destruction commenced unwarranted catastrophic. I raised my hands a blessing tasting the fire the ash. donโt be fooled by the burns of the leftover destruction. having to rise from those ashes I discovered re-discovered Myself. My strength. My intelligence. A glorious phoenix with wings of fire and ash. -ย flying, soaring. a winged beast of [...]
a non-mutual relationship
a heaviness blankets me like a shawl, misted grey feeding off my soul, like a parasite. it bites. it pulls at my life force, sucking, taking, stealing. my body is not my own. sinister laughter only i can hear you are unworthy. you are nothing.ย you are unlovable no one will ever remember you. [...]
a sequel
i pushed through the wind and there was something so painfully beautiful in the action so simple yet so powerful. i pushed through the wind and i felt carefree young happy i was who i was meant to be in that moment, unapologetically flawed and absolutelyย beautiful. i learnt something that day in the park, surrounded [...]
anna short for anxiety
I had an anxiety attack today. At work, while serving customers. My chest was a cage, my heart a prisoner gunning for escape. Boom. Boom. ย ย Boom. Boom. It scared me this time. I thought I was going to collapse right there while selling Christmas stamps. What a way to go, eh? The room [...]
โจ ๐ฝ๐ฑ๐ฎ ๐ต๐ฒ๐ซ๐ป๐ช๐ป๐ ๐ธ๐ฏ ๐ช๐ต๐ฎ๐๐ช๐ท๐ญ๐ป๐ช โจ 