Another book tag! and an award one, at that! I want to begin by thanking Vinny at Artsy Draft for nominating me! Words cannot express my gratitude – you’re an absolute queen! So, I have never heard of this award/tag so I had to read over Vinny’s explanation a few times. From what I understand, it’s basically a venture into self-acceptance and love. It is acknowledging your flaws and your weaknesses and transforming them into personal strengths, and aspects of yourself to celebrate. I honestly think this is so beautiful and I am extremely grateful, again, for Vinny for thinking of me and my little ol’ blog! Send her lots and lots of love, my friends!
From what I understand, and from Vinny’s own post, the Flawesome Award was originally created by Sophia Ismaa. She described the award itself as the process of self-empowerment:
How many times do we see an award that celebrates all things bright and shiny and sunny in a person? How often do we forget that our weaknesses can be a strength? Our flaws make us human, our flaws tell us more about who we are, and in turn we turn those flaws into awesome strengths. In short, our flaws make us #flawesome
How incredible is that? So, what are the rules of the Flawesome Award?
Write about 3 of your flaws or weaknesses
Turn it into a positive thing or strengths
Nominate 10 other bloggers for this award.
1. I’m an extremely anxious person. This has more to do with my mental health than anything, but it could be considered as a ‘weakness’, and in the past, I viewed it as such. I’m planning on a future blog post which explores this aspect of myself in the future, but I have been diagnosed with Generalised Anxiety Disorder with Panic Attacks, and it was and still can be, crippling. My anxiety can be triggered randomly; it could be stress or feeling overwhelmed from university work or it could be social situations. The number of times, for instance, I have had extreme panic attacks at shopping centres or on public transport, still astounds me. That’s just who I am, and I take medication so that my anxiety doesn’t completely overpower my everything and I can leave the house and be okay. But my battle with anxiety has made me such an incredibly strong person. It really has. My anxiety has shaped who I am today, and I am so much more open about my mental health with my family and friends that it has allowed such wonderful open discussions about mental health to occur. As a result of my own anxiety, I have also grown to understand the importance of listening. Although my anxiety can be disruptive, it has also enabled me to be strong, brave and empathetic.
2. I often don’t forgive myself. I seem to hold myself up to the highest standard, and if I fail to meet that standard, I am extremely critical of myself. I do think that this is partly related to my anxiety, but I am harder on myself and I strive for perfection. If I am unable to complete something to the level that I believe it should be completed, I just go obsessively focus on my mistakes and the things which I could have done better. This makes university sometimes extremely overwhelming, with respect to work and assignments – and, if I am honest, it can be so disheartening. How is this a strength? Well, when I am motivated to do so, I am hardworking. I enjoy the process of research and writing, I enjoy cultivating something out of nothing, that’s one of the awesome aspects of this weakness. It has enabled me to approach what I do in my life with passion. I am only now, however, starting to be slightly less critical of myself and it is liberating, I have to admit. Now that my university degree is over, there isn’t a desperate need to prove myself – it’s just me and my blog now.
3. I don’t sugarcoat my words. I have always been told that my face is hella expressive. Not only that, I tend to tell people the truth – and this can be quite blunt and in your face. If I don’t agree with you, I will tell you. If you ask me for the truth, I will give it to you. That’s it. I place this as a weakness because I can be ignorant of how what I am saying impacts the other person. It can seem quite ‘bitchy’ and that is not how I want to be or how I want to be perceived. In terms of how this is a strength, is that first and foremost, the filter between my brain and my mouth is now modified – in that, I have one. I take the time to consider my words before I belt them out. If I don’t agree with you, I will tell you after thinking of why I don’t agree with you and said in a way that is not offensive – unless you are an utter sexist, homophobic idiot, then all bet’s are off. On the other hand, people around me know that I am an honest person who will always embark on telling you the truth.
Whew! That was a lot. So that’s it for today, my loves! For this award, I’ll nominate five bloggers, only because I’ve been an incessant tagger on twitter and I feel bad:
♥ Angela at HidingBehindBooksBlog
♥ Lili at Lilisblissfulpages
♥ Rejitha at Bookbugworld
♥ Tara at Blogaboutalatte
♥ Tree at Wordsaboutwords
If you are going to do the tag, please tag me on twitter so I can see!!
Until next time! Happy reading!