i want to rip out my voice

I want to rip out my voice and throw it at you

make you bleed

from words

unspoken.

the more i scream

the less you hear

the more i hurt

the less you care.

i want to rip out my heart

and squeeze it

and let it rupture in front of your

face.

so you can see

the damage

you’ve done to me.

while i’m there

i’ll cut open my chest,

for the emptiness is

consuming;

and i want you to see it.

i want you to see,

i want you to acknowledge

the pain you have caused,

with your bystander

approach.

you allow for them to beat me down,

you may not hold the knife,

but i feel you stabbing me in the back

again and

again.

– i want you to be the person i know you to be.